I’ve been working through my latest lab results, and how I’m feeling, and re-reading a book about autoimmune disease and health that I read before…and I feel myself going back into research mode.
I really don’t know that I have a choice in the sense that while I’m back on the thyroid medication I prefer, finally, after a full year of dealing with different medications in an effort to chase away premature ventricular contractions, I don’t feel as well as I was hoping and expecting to. The PVCs were horrible when they started last April, keeping me up all night many nights. So I had to go off thyroid medication altogether for a while, which caused me to gain some weight. I had to get my iron levels up high enough to ward off the PVCs, and the process plain took longer than I wanted.
So, here I am, supposedly back where I was two years ago. Only I’m not.
I have a few other issues I didn’t have then and the mediation doesn’t seem to be doing what it was then.
So what do I do?
Back to the drawing board. Is there a different medication I could take? How can I help my digestion? Should I change my diet? Drop the fish oil? Change the type of magnesium? Change the B complex? Would a sleep study be beneficial? Something else to support the adrenals?
There are quite a few questions, but the main one is this.
How much effort am I supposed to put into trying for better health?
Would it be better to stop spending valuable time reading and researching and live my life as it is?
I get drawn into the complexities, and sometimes I find myself thinking about nothing else throughout the day but my recurring questions about the health strategies I’ve been reading about. Then I ask myself, what kind of life is that?
Maybe I should just give it up, accept how I am doing for how I am doing, and make the best of it.
But those of you who know me well know I am not the kind of person who gives up when faced with an obstacle. Hermione-like, I turn to the library of information in an effort to find a solution.
I just don’t want to spend most of my life–trying to fix my life.
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