You may have had these experiences: you’re listening to an orchestra concert. You’re walking through a garden full of flowers and meandering paths. You’re finishing off an amazing novel. You are gazing in amazement at a painting in a gallery. And you feel a sort of inward pain: you want to be a participant in this creation. It’s so good, so fine, so enriching and powerful, that you want to do the same.
For me, that turned into an interior voice that said things like, “You should have thought of that. You should pursue that path. You need to develop these skills so that you can do that. But you’ll never be that good.” I long to be one with that beauty, to inhabit it and express it myself, perhaps so that I can hold onto it and stay with it.
That longing to grasp hold of a beautiful moment turns bitter and jealous quickly if we let it. And that sours the moment as it was and as it was meant to be.
As you live your life, you are following the calling you were given, and you are becoming the person you were meant to be. Have trust as you walk your path. Release the dissatisfaction with your inability to be that other person, to create that artful moment you experienced. Have trust as you walk your path that each step, each day, each moment is enough–and that you, in that moment, are enough.
You were never meant to be that other. You were meant to be yourself.
And as you learn to believe that, you can receive the gifts of beauty that others create and which come to you with a full, open and joyful heart, basking in the beauty of the moment that you have been given.
Joy in the Journey 
Lovely!